Its a crazy crazy time at work these days. I havent had much time to post or even think about posting. But Im going to take a lil moment out of my day off to let you guys know whats going on and somethings that I have been thinking about.
First off, I have taken 3 pills of Femara, and tonight will be my 4th. Yesterday I was MAJORLY bloated. And I dont think I ate corn.....so I have no idea what was wrong. Maybe the femara? Ive been having headaches since starting it, but I hear that's a normal and expected side effect.
Ok now onto my random thoughts that I have been having and what not.
I have been day dreaming alot about my baby(ies) and the desire in my heart is definitely aflame. My due date will be December 1st if I conceive this cycle. Which just happens to be 2 days before my birthday! Ive thought of baby names and found a couple more that I adore!! I havent let myself look at nursery things yet....Plus I dont think there are any new themes since the last time I looked! That will probably happen in a couple weeks :) haha
I really really really am fighting to stay positive. There have been a few moments this week where I feel like everyone is going to have kids before me(which most already have one). Im fighting off the feelings of bitterness about my situation. I dont want to be upset and bitter that everyone around me is pregnant.
I dreamt I delivered a beautiful baby boy. We shall see. We are hoping for a girl, hubs has a more specific prayer. He wants non-identical twin girls, one with blonde hair, and one with brown hair. It cracks me up, but he is completely serious. I love that he is already trying to prepare to be a daddy. I catch him reading the "Early Years Parenting" magazine. As often as they come in, it melts my heart for sure. I just hope I can make him a daddy soon....I know its hard for me to see his bro and wife being pregnant...but I know that its hard on him too. :(