My Sister in law is pregnant.
The one thing I begged God to spare me from...to not make me watch her be pregnant and bring a baby into this world...
He didnt listen.
I cant describe the pain I feel right now. Oh but it gets better, she is due only 4 days after I was, and either on or right before my Mom's birthday...yep thats right. Figures huh, God took my baby and gave her one...
I have never felt more useless. More forgotten. More hurt.
I cant stop crying, shaking, and I feel like I may just puke.